This post is dedicated to Si Hui and Xin Li:

To both of you,
A 'sorry' is not enough for you. I don't mind if you guys hate me. I have gone through it before. I grown up in a family with arguments everyday and I must learn to defend myself or else I would get scolded as well. I learnt a lot from that. Society is not friendly. In the end, you have to protect yourself to live in this society.

I really have a very bad temper. Those who have been with me for a long time knows it well. I don't like it and neither would you. Anger management has helped me to control it for 10 years. I resisted everything that has made me angry for this 10 years. Especially primary school. I resisted a lot of things and I still managed to smile to them and take it nothing has happened. I learnt how to 'Forgive and Forget'. This could be one of the most important value in my life. Next time when I work, I will have to work with people I do not like. There are going to be other people that would backstab me. Now is the time to learn the life skills. I have to resist them as well and still work. When they sabotage you, it's the time to do the same to them. Learn it now, apply later.

I also have very little patience. I have very little patience in everything. If something is not done within a specific time, I would get angry but thanks to anger management, I had tried to resist flaring up.

I also don't like to show my temper. How many times have I been angry easily. Did you know that some of the things you do I don't agree and sometimes get frustrated? I don't show it. I hide it all inside me. I want to tell you that but did you know I also know that if I did that, it would hurt your feelings? I done many things to control it and after awhile I will forget it and lead a happy life again. This could be one of the reasons why I'm also so forgetful.

To Xin Li:
This attitude it will still bring me somewhere. Yes, people might still hate me. I learn to control it. You have a temper too. When people cut the queue, don't you get angry? I get angry too, Si Hui get angry too. Do we show it? No. Why? Because we don't want to cause a commotion. You are different. You would shout very loud and vent out all your anger. This is the attitude that would not get accepted in society. I'm not making you angry but making you understand mroe about yourself. Maybe you should also learn how to control it just like me? Oh, and one more thing. You might like to act cute sometimes and I get really irritated when you do that but I never said it. I'm controlling my anger. Don't get too angry because of this. I'm really sorry for bringing your parents into this situation. I lose control of my words when I get angry.

To Si Hui:
Yes, maybe the friendship is really over and nothing can change it. Yes. Everything is about to change. Sorry if I said you were impatient and things and talked something bad. Sorry I asked you to F*** off. I don't use profanities all the time. If I used profanities it merely means I'm really angry and it's not the best time to mess me and make me even more angry or else it gets worse. I have done it before and I don't want it to happen again.

I hope that after reading this, you will understand me and understand how I feel about you guys sometimes. If it still causes unhappinness then I cannot help you. BYE