Hi.

2nd day of Term III. Kind of boring. school is getting more and more boring now because now for us is the revision period and there's actually nothing to do. I took my entry proof today and my MT oral is on Friday!!! omg. super nervous again. Hope I would do well.

Anyways, after school went with Jerry, Joe, Sihui, Calise, Deanne and Darren to the coffeeshop for lunch. deanne was feeling a bit unwell so she left early. They were brainstorming about how to celebrate JiaHui's b'day. Calise doesn't want to do any planning because she has done the previous 2 one also I think. They were a bit pissed also lah. Jerome and gang were closer to JiaHui so they should know what to do to make him happy but his silly excuse was that he had to practice Chinese Oral and there's just no time to do anything for him. As if the others don't have to as well. =.=...

Later, me, Joe and Jerry went to Tampines 1 and looked at sportswear because JiaHui like basketball so they wanted to buy something related to basketball. We then went to TM and went into FreshBox. We saw a shirt[not T-shirt] which actually looks quite nice and planned to buy that for JiaHui since Jerome is doing the planning and they are buying the present[they thought]. Joe SMS Jerome earlier saying he plan and Joe buy present. When we were discussing about the shirt, Jerome said why are we planning because he's going to buy the present. Then, they got pissed. I understand that. We spent the last 2 hours thinking of what to buy and in the end, he said he was buying.

They then just wanted to buy a cake to just show that they did do something for the birthday. I went home first because it was getting a bit late. In the end, they didn't buy the cake and buying it someday..

haha..

Now, practicing EMATHS...tomorrow got EM and AM remedial until 5.15pm...sianz...bye

Hi.

I done my DSA auditions today! I was the first one there and maybe the only one today. =.=. Ok. I went there and done my interview and Mr Wong saw my EL results but I told him that I would try my best to improve. Hope that helps. *PRAY*. Then later, the conductor came. I went in to the band store and for some weird reasons, their band store is not stuffy and hot.[unlike ours] She asked me to play concert C and she asked me I know right, and I was like yah. She asked you know what scale you have to play right, I said D major. she asked to play 2 octaves. I played 2 octaves but then she stare at me and said 2 octaves. I already did! I just played and repeated 1 more time until she was satisfied because apparently she doesn't seem to hear my 2 octaves. She made me play G major and starting from the open G to the highest note I could reach. Damn it. I played super flat.!!! not used to it.

Played some sight reading things and then later some pieces which is actually part of sight reading. Played Machu Picchu. ARGH. sooo many sharps, but I made it. Hai..hope i get in. The people there quite friendly and nice to me. haha. Got this guy from clarinet talk to me. say that I must try my best. HAHA.

ok, i have to finish my physics wb or else I might die tomorrow.

Hi.

Tomorrow's the BIG day for me! Really, it is. It is the day in which I would show my skills on the clarinet to the MJC people. I could not believe that it is going to be that day. I'm super nervous about it but I must try to stay calm so I would not screw up the audition. I really have to get in MJC band!! Hai. As usual for this past week, I have been practicing my clarinet to improve my skills and to make sure I don't lose my embrochure. AND, something horrible happened. When I was doing my last scales practice before I packed up, the most important note. The middle C note[concert pitch B-flat] is ooper flat. I was like OMG. How could this happen? This did not happen before and now it did. I tried to find the bloody problem. I swabbed it, I looked for damaged keys and stuff but then there was nothing and the note was still flat. Everytime I started playing, the note would be damn flat and then it would return to normal pitch. It was just very annoying. ARGH. I'm going to change that joint tomorrow straight after school. HOW COULD SOMETHING LIKE THIS HAPPEN?????

I planned out everything to do for this holidays and I just realised yesterday, I had homework to do. =.= Let's take a look at the things I should have done.

Work to be done:
1.Finish the argumentative essay on charity.
2.Finish up Chemistry 10-yr series.
3.Do the Emaths paper.
4.Physics WB

Yes, I know. I'm screwed! I have so much to do. well, at least i still managed to do parts of each work! HAHA. At least it's better than not done at all.

Oh yah, I made my blog public again just for fun. Since no more things are happening then it should actually be alright to make it public again. I'm seriously bored. I don't want to revise anymore. I just don't have the mood to revise now. I've been worrying about the audition so much that I don't even think I want to study. Maybe when I go to school tomorrow, I would be having butterflies in my stomach. ARGH!

Pray hard that I don't screw up the audition tomorrow and would get accepted inside the school even though my Mid-year results was kind of screwed up as well. They would not want to kick out a person with good skills in the clarinet right? I hope so. HAI. Very nervous. OK.

I want to play games le. BYE

Hi.

Another boring day. Studying Bio again. Life is just so boring when there's no school sometimes. The feeling is just so weird. When there's school, you want holidays. When there's holidays, you want school. It's almost ironic.

2 more days to school re-open and also my DSA audition to MJC. YAY. super excited and nervous at the same time. I have no idea why is that happening again. Everytime I think about it, my hands and legs would get very sweaty. The effects of adrenalin I guess. Haha. I really pray hard that I would get in even though my results for mid year isn't that satisfying.

I want to go to the Philharmonic Youth Winds concert tomorrow at the Esplanade but then no one can go out and I also doubt anyone would so whatever, I'll stay at home again and rot.

Randomness again. I want to go cycling also leh. hmmm...

That's all. BYE

Hi.

Everything is back to normal. I'm not that worried now. We are not angry with each other now. =) I can always wait. Peishi is over-excited because many good things happened yesterday. Haha.

Today was nothing special except me packing up those mountains of paper on my table into respective files. I thought it would take me like forever but it is in actual fact, very fast. I'm done with it and my table is so uch cleaner now. I'm like a total clean-freak as well.

I have to study now. Hope you guys are having a great week and an even better weekend. See you soon. BYE

Woo...

Feeling tired. Maybe it's the studying process. Staying away from arguments[peishi's idea]. Meiyin tried to help i told her it's alright, just let them chill. She's cool with that. So yah. Everything would turn out ok?

Studying bio and I think I'm going to sleep soon since it's so boring. Helped my sister take photos of herself because she doesn't want to go to the photoshop and take because it would be ugly. The photo is for her resume anyway. Take like 10 pictures until she was happy. ARGH.

Today was nothing special..back to studying so BYE

Hi.

The argument is not going to end peacefully. I shall stop writing about it here. It's not going to solve any of our problems. I'll listen to peishi and say give you guys more time. Yes. I only want friends that benefits me and at the same time benefit you as well. You helped me out and I helped you back so it will cancel each others help and we are still equal. I guess that you might have still intepreted the blog post wrongly. I know that you have this temper. I don't know you as much as well. I'm not a girl. I don't understand what you guys think. Neither would you.

I'm not trying to start an argument again. I just want you to figure out that all I'm saying is not going against you. I said before I don't mind if you scold me on your blog. I'm not doing that to you either.

Yes. You have suffered more in this society before. I truly understand that because of your family situation. I didn't come out and work before. Maybe after all I would not survive in this society. Oh and 1 more thing. You always say that this attitude would not find me a wife. It's getting monotonous. You might want to fight back again.

I already told you that I had already said in my last post that the post wasn't meant to make you angry. It's for you to understand how I feel about you guys and also about me.

That's all. I'm not forcing you to friend me again. If you treat me as a friend and not a close one, that would be the best. I said from the very beginning, I don't want close friends.

This post is dedicated to Si Hui and Xin Li:

To both of you,
A 'sorry' is not enough for you. I don't mind if you guys hate me. I have gone through it before. I grown up in a family with arguments everyday and I must learn to defend myself or else I would get scolded as well. I learnt a lot from that. Society is not friendly. In the end, you have to protect yourself to live in this society.

I really have a very bad temper. Those who have been with me for a long time knows it well. I don't like it and neither would you. Anger management has helped me to control it for 10 years. I resisted everything that has made me angry for this 10 years. Especially primary school. I resisted a lot of things and I still managed to smile to them and take it nothing has happened. I learnt how to 'Forgive and Forget'. This could be one of the most important value in my life. Next time when I work, I will have to work with people I do not like. There are going to be other people that would backstab me. Now is the time to learn the life skills. I have to resist them as well and still work. When they sabotage you, it's the time to do the same to them. Learn it now, apply later.

I also have very little patience. I have very little patience in everything. If something is not done within a specific time, I would get angry but thanks to anger management, I had tried to resist flaring up.

I also don't like to show my temper. How many times have I been angry easily. Did you know that some of the things you do I don't agree and sometimes get frustrated? I don't show it. I hide it all inside me. I want to tell you that but did you know I also know that if I did that, it would hurt your feelings? I done many things to control it and after awhile I will forget it and lead a happy life again. This could be one of the reasons why I'm also so forgetful.

To Xin Li:
This attitude it will still bring me somewhere. Yes, people might still hate me. I learn to control it. You have a temper too. When people cut the queue, don't you get angry? I get angry too, Si Hui get angry too. Do we show it? No. Why? Because we don't want to cause a commotion. You are different. You would shout very loud and vent out all your anger. This is the attitude that would not get accepted in society. I'm not making you angry but making you understand mroe about yourself. Maybe you should also learn how to control it just like me? Oh, and one more thing. You might like to act cute sometimes and I get really irritated when you do that but I never said it. I'm controlling my anger. Don't get too angry because of this. I'm really sorry for bringing your parents into this situation. I lose control of my words when I get angry.

To Si Hui:
Yes, maybe the friendship is really over and nothing can change it. Yes. Everything is about to change. Sorry if I said you were impatient and things and talked something bad. Sorry I asked you to F*** off. I don't use profanities all the time. If I used profanities it merely means I'm really angry and it's not the best time to mess me and make me even more angry or else it gets worse. I have done it before and I don't want it to happen again.

I hope that after reading this, you will understand me and understand how I feel about you guys sometimes. If it still causes unhappinness then I cannot help you. BYE

Hi.

Second post of the day! I have received my email from Mr Wong Chee Choy from MJC and he said my audition date is confirmed. I'm actually getting nervous and excited at the same time. I cannot believe in a few days time, I would try my luck to get into MJC band.

I just found out that there would be no more Band Camp tomorrow due to the wonderful and oh-so famous Swine Flu or in scientific term, the H1N1 Flu. They said that our school have one suspected case but I'm not sure about that. Whatever the case is, we still have to go back to school no matter what next week. It's still alright to go back to school again. I don't mind.

My mom just reprimanded me saying I always come into the room at a specific time and ask me whether I was playing games again or not. I said NO lah. She now made a rule saying I cannot play games at night. What the hell!? TV also got nothing nice to watch of course I come inside the room and be in my own little world cannot is it? Kind of annoying sometimes. At least I studies in front of her ok even though I turned on the computer.

I need time for relaxation as well. Like duh.

I need to study Biology now. I really have to. 1 more chapter to go for today! JIAYOUS!

BYE

Hi.

So the problem that is still persisting is that some people are still not chilling. Relax. I ended the thing already. It was just a moment of lost control of my horrible temper. CHILL!

I just went to Pastamania with my sis for lunch. I had never eaten pastamania for like 2 years already. My sis says she doesn't want to go there again because she was eating "Mussels and Clams" but she didn't want the clams and thought they would give her more mussels. In the end, it's still 2 mussels and got pissed. haha.

Studying Biology now. Band Camp is tomorrow and I think I might go. Most probably lah. Since I have really nothing to do. ok.

I should study again. BYE

Hi.

Second post of the day jsut to make up the 2 posts I deleted.

I have already think that the argument and things are all gone. Misunderstandings happened and this is the time that I make everything right to let you guys understand me more. I guess that after I read peishi's blog she also understand herself more. Yes, it was rather a harsh one but now is the time to start to change! One of Nat's video is named"Everything is about to change" or something like that. Yes, everything is starting to change. So let's take this time to reflect again on our character and change it!

I just played this new game(?) on Facebook called Typing Maniac. It's rather fun. Improve typing speed and I'm getting the hang of it and getting better. YES! You should go play it!

These few days, tried to keep to my study plan but somehow it doesn't really work that well. DSA? must be. I think I should get back to studying. I think I really have to buck up! I don't ever want to have an underlined mark again for Prelims. DO IT!!!!!

BYE

Hi!

I deleted my last 2 posts for a reason. The reason is: I'm out of my bloody mind. Scolding people on my blog again is just stupid. I went through that before and of course, it came back. Yes, I have a suckish attitude and stupid temper which is uncontrollable.


Monday:
I really didn't want to go to the Da Vinci Exhibition. I planned my day, I shall stick to it. Don't ruin it. I seriously am sorry for the harsh SMS and blog entries. I didn't want to. I would really want to go if you guys make the meeting time a bit later. Seriously, I woke up at 9am that day and I was really awake even though I slept early. I have this mentality now saying:"it's the holidays. Have more rest and work hard later." So yah. So on monday went to school to take my testimonial and saw the 3 heads in the music room and they crapped so much. I think this batch of 3 heads have more things in common then our batch. haha.

Tuesday:
Today is Tuesday right? Oh yah it is. Did nothing today except for sending my DSA application form to the mailbox and also study Bio. I'm not really focusing that hard on my studies yet. I really have to focus on studies and DSA at the same time. In a dilemma.

One important note: I am very straight forward and when I have a bad mood and you can feel it, it's best for you to shut up. You will not like the effects of continuing talking something bad. BAD TEMPER?

sorry to those I pissed off...i'm not that easy to talk to anyway..that's why i'm an introvert!

Hi.

Today was a pretty typical sunday routine again.

Woke up, breakfast, practice piano, PRACTICE CLARINET, vacuum, lunch, study, computer, Wii, bathe, dinner, study, sleep. The last few are going to be what is going to happen later.

Today's FATHER"S DAY!!!! wishing all dads a happy father's day. At least today my dad is coming home for dinner so at least it would be something like a celebration. wanted to go out and eat but we were afraid that there were going to be lots of people so me and my sis are going to pay for breakfast next week. haha. delayed father's day.

1 more week to school re-open and most importantly, DSA audition to MJC! going back to school tml afternoon to get back my testimonial then tomorrow i can send my application already! hooray! then i will have to practice for DSA.

hope i can get in! BYE

Hi.

Yesterday had night study and sorry peishi that i didn't eat dinner with you because I really don't want to borrow money from people. Stayed in school for the entire day because there was Bio Mock SPA and it was so lame. I still thought I would be able to go home but by that time it ended, it was already 1630 so I stayed in school instead. Night study was pretty fast this time. Time is on my side. HAHA. Went home and ate my dinner. I was so tired after playing that Table Tennis Squash in school that I fell asleep once I landed on my bed.

Woke up this morning and my whole body ache. ARGH! must be the table tennis squash game.

Today is my official holidays like literally. No more school. No more remedials. Tons of homework and studying to do. This is what holidays feel like? I don't know. I guess so. Now I have my study plan and I will stick to it. I have lots of studying to do today and I know I will make it. YES!

Ok..back to studying and watching finish Nat's new video. BYE

Hi.

Today was another day at school. It wasn't that bad. Mr Teo decided to let us go hald an hour early because he thinks that 2 hours is seriously too long. I think so too. Chemistry for 2 hours make me want to sleep. However, we learnt alcohol and carboxylic acids. I didn't know that when alcohol and carboxylic acids mix, they will become esters which are really used for food flavouring. Very interesting.

After Amaths, I stayed around in class and watch Marcus, Lynn, Joe, Jerry etc. play their 'tennis' using a small football and table tennis racquet. Moy was at the board doing stupid things like drawing out the structural formula for all the alkanes, alkenes and alcohols. Whenever the ball accidentally hits him [and I do mean accidentally], he would take away the ball and throw at the person who hit him. How is it possible to not hit him when they are playing near the board and the board is used as a wall? He might have some compulsive mental disorder in his mind making him act that way.

After that, walked to Esso to take 34 home. Really hot day, sweat the whole time while waiting for the bus to come. Went home and eat cup noodles then played clarinet. Have so much fun playing it but then, the bell part was stuck to the lower joint when I wanted to keep it. Now, I have to bring that part to school and change it. Interesting. No matter how hard I tried pulling it, it does not seem to come out. I think the cork expanded too much and I put too little cork grease.

Nevermind. Attempts to do Amaths homework failed again! Prelims are in a few weeks time and I'm not even starting revision. WAKE UP!!!

Ok. Do Amaths homework! Bye.

Hi.

Today was another day at school but it rained! How amazing is that? Singapore does not have a lot of days that are rainy even though we are supposedly to be a rainforest. Went to school and there were like so little people in class when it was already 0800. Must be the weather. I guess so. I don't understand why everytime it starts to rain, people always end up being late? Psychologically or is it just what nature wants to do to you. Maybe that question would never have an answer.

Chemistry was another boring lesson talking about alkanes. The more significant difference between alkenes and alkanes is that alkanes have a carbon-carbon double bond which has a very big change to everything. It's actually not that difficult. Just have to commit to memory and it's easy to get everything done. Went to find Mdm Tan today during recess but I think she's not in Singapore. I guess I might have to resort to finding Mrs Rosemary Lim to do my testimonial. Did not find Mr Teo again and I guess I want to get all the documents in one day then I don't have to run around the school to find teachers everyday and they get irritated by me.

Physics was interesting. Mr Kang thought that yesterday was his last lesson with us and guess what, he was wrong! There's still one more physics lesson today. So he drove all the way from Marine Parade to Dunman Secondary School in 20 minutes. He has no laptop, no powerpoint, no notes and only a marker. He has no choice but to use the whiteboard which he rarely touches. The lesson was rather dry but at least there was some form of lesson going on.

After the lessons, had English at 1330 and we were doing oral. It's quite funny because people were late again and they had to do a poem again. Hilarious! Getting more boring and tiring but at least we had something to do before. After English, went to band store to take a reed and a clarinet to practice for DSA audition. Went with Jerry and Lynn to Budget Cafe for our lunch at 1530. Talk crap and Jerry just did not want to tell us his composition on Destiny. He said he's going to print it out for us to read. I can't wait! I think it would be like ooper exciting.

I brought the '101 things you need to know...and some you don't!' book to school and Jerry was sitting beside me today. He read 1 thing and he got addicited. Joe was worst. He took my book while I was reading and he read it for like 30 minutes and not willing to let go. Jerry was bugging me to read finish it and I did read finish it! Yay! I'm going to lend it to him tomorrow. I think that book has a voodoo or some addicition spell in it. Once you start reading, you cannot stop!

Whatever. That's all. Natalie Tran has a new video. watching it now! ok. BYE.

Hi.

Today was back to school again and seriously, today is one of the most boring day ever. Had physics first and it was a practice of Skill 3. It's totally different from Chemistry and Biology. Why must it be different? Ask Cambridge. This shows my boredom already. Like talking to myself. Oh wait! I always do that! Had SS later. Did the fall of venice. Poor Venice. Sinking and was once a prosperous country. Sad life. So they said that Singapore is like Venice. So, SIngapore cannot live a lavish lifestyle and cannot have some stupid corrupted government. So let's all start living in slums and squatter settlements to live a simple lifestyle.

Wanted to borrow the clarinet today but I realised my case has been sent for repair and my reeds and swab is inside. =.=..So I'll might play tomorrow. Then, went to lunch with si hui, peishi and pearlyn. Went to the T-mart Mac and they were renovating part of the restaurant. We all thought it was nothing and when we started eating, they started to drill and knock. There was this particular knocking sound which sounds like heartbeat and I was starting to make fun of it when it stopped. I said the person because the heartbeat stopped.

There was this drilling noise next and sihui got irritated. Peishi was adamant to move out of the restaurant and sit outside so we suffered the rest of the noise. Later, I said:" WOW! This is MacDonald's Symphony No. 1" and started saying their different movements. It shows how lame I could be sometimes. Afterwards, I changed it to the contemporary version of Beethoven's Symphony No. 5 and said about stupid things.

After peishi finally drank finish her green tea, we left. Took bus home with them and came home. Nothing to do at home for the whole day. I decided to read up on alkanes again just to make sure I understand. Did physics workbook, attempts kind of failed. I cannot believe time passes so slow today because I felt I used the computer for eternity when I only used it for 1 hour. haha. The usual things next.

so yah, this is how boring your life could be easily. haha. BYE

hi.

Yesterday was the happiest day of my life. Why? It is because my mom and sis are finally back from Hong Kong. No more CHORES. 1 week of chores is enough to make my body fatigue. My sister bought me a book!!! It's called "101 things you need to know...and some you don't". It's very funny and nice. THANK YOU!

Today, I decided at last to use DSA to get into MJ..haha..i hope i can pass the auditions..it's time for me to practice my clarinet again. So I'm doing that tomorrow. I can't believe i'm using DSA again but whatever. Doing Chem 10-yr series now to revise. O levels are actually quite easy. Not that tough as I imagine it to be.

nothing to say already..time to study again..BYE

Hi.

There must be something wrong with me these days, seriously. Not the attitude but the tiredness. These days I've been very very tired and I have no idea why. Last night, I slept for about 8 hours already but when I went to school, I was in my tired mode during physics and damn it, mr kang is doing a new chapter! How could I afford to continue sleeping in class? It's like 'O' level year and damn it, it's the last few chapters left. Please, I beg myself to just be attentive in class.

So the new topic that mr kang went through today is very amazing. It's like the wires all around us are actually producing magnetic fields as well. I think it's kinda weak but it's there. I don't know. Then had early recess and went to 7-11 there. In the end, noel, darren and joe went to eat at the nearby coffeeshop. Then when it was 1030 I like ask anyone want to leave because we are already late and it's ms ong's lesson. No one wanted so I ran back to class. Luckily, I wasn't that late. They came back at 1050 and the guys were locked outside and had to make out a poem to impress Ms Ong. In the end, the poem was damn funny. haha.

After school, had oral consultation with bk, meiyen and eugene tay. It's alright. My picture was always bad so it continued to be bad. After the group, we had one-on-one oral and I was last. The teacher said I did well for reading aloud. I had band 1 for that! Picture was a 9/12 and conversation wasn't that well said. So I guess it's band 2 as well.

Came home and washed the clothes. I had to do an argumentative but I was overly tired so I played Wii Fit instead. Bad idea. I became more tired. Went over to neighbour's house for dinner. Came home and figuratively died. I'm so tired.

By the way, my restaurant city had some stupid problems. I don't know what's the problem. I'm like a computer geek. ok. maybe I'll tell Ms Ong i really am very tired and had some form of mental block and can't write the essay out.

Tomorrow must be the worst day. Morning-lessons. Afternoon-bio. Night-EL night study. My whole day revolves in school!!! ARGH. sec 4 life sucks. I only have to suffer for a few more months and the 'O's arrive and after that it would be freedom at last. Maybe after 'O's I might go back to band and teach the juniors. Haha. I don't mind coming back in the future as well. Seriously. I'm so caught up with band music and the band is dying as usual. But clarinets are still the BEST...

ok. time to shut up. BYE

hi..

sorry about my post. I tell you, I'm not feeling like myself these days. Ok. I must start to thing that the heat is nothing.

Today went to school as usual and I started to read "Broader Perspectives" again. Read a few interesting articles today. Ms Ong came in and she asked me to find her after school to discuss my composition that I handed up yesterday. I tell you, that woman really marks fast. Unlike some other teachers who take forever and sometimes forgotten about it. Then we continued with lessons and had recess. Had physics after that. I was feeling super tired then and almost fell asleep and drifted off halfway through the lesson. I am suppose to listen in class. Maybe sitting at the back really sucks. That must explain my lousy mid-year results.

After school, there was this Chinese Oral Workshop. I went to eat lunch with Marcus, Sherry, Deanne and Moy at the coffeeshop again. They wanted Budget Cafe but then from where everyone seemed to be heading, there's going to be a lot of people there and so we decided to avoid that area. Had lunch and Ms Ong called me and since my phone was in silent mode, I did not pick it up. Then guess what? she was at the coffeeshop.

When we walked back to school, she just came back. It shows how slow we walk compare to Mr Tang's car. So my composition was badly done. I expected it. Then had the stupid oral workshop. In the end, it was not even a workshop. It's a one-on-one chinese oral mock exam. It was terrible and boring.

After the whole thing I was suppose to find ms ong but she like MIA and i thought she would have already left school so i decided to take the bus home. On the bus, she CALLED. she asked me to meet her at interchange and i was like SHIT. still had to meet her anyways. she came and we went to BK and discussed more about my lousy composition. She told me maybe I should try argumentative and I said OK. WHY DID I SAY THAT? she wanted me to do one. maybe I'll hand up on Friday instead. haha.

Ok..damn tired..

BYE

Hi.

I have officially confirmed the sentence of "Life is Unfair". Yes. Life truly is unfair. No matter how much things you did before for the well being of people, they just don't acknkowledge you for it. I am not saying anything. Today was really the day I confirmed that sentence.

You guys doing those things for him? Is it worth it after all? Would he ever remember that you guys celebrated his 16th birthday? What would he do to thank you guys? That's a lot of questions. I just don't understand it. He could be the most annoying guy in their entire class and you guys still treat him well. Well, I must 佩服 you guys. You guys can really stand his annoyance for so long. I still remembered the time when he sat behind me and Sherry was sick. Sherry was like very stubborn to not go home because she wants to take the test and how could you say that!? You know what you said? You bloody hell said:" wah lao. sick then go home lah. come to school also useless." Yah. Maybe you are right, but your tone was super bad. Everyone has feelings you know. You were lucky Sherry didn't hear what you said. I got really pissed with you. What if you were sick and I said that behind your back? would you like it?

Then, you had once sat beside me. I scored well for Chinese CT. I had never done so well before and I just gave a look of shock and only talked to Shang Zhi. You! beside me and saying:"AI yah! don't hao lian lah." Ok! fine. I zipped up my bloody mouth. Maths paper was given out next. YOU! had scored well and were amongst the top few. Let's see what you did! YOU WERE THE ONE SHOWING OFF TO PEOPLE! let me see. If you done well and showed off a bit, I don't mind because everyone will do that once in awhile. but YOU! meant only you can hao lian and the rest of the world who does better than you cannot hao lian izzit? Must you be always at the top of the game? I think your mind is mental.

Today. they done things for you. This is practically stupid. you are so annoying and people are still friends with you. Or are they really, or could they be just the same as you. as egoistic as you? I think they are. I guess I'm just thinking too much or the heat is really getting to me. I don't think you would ever read this but if you do, REFLECT on yourself. I reflected on my stupid behaviour in the past.

if YOU! are going to continuously be this egoistic, you are going nowhere. The society doesn't have room for you this kind of person. I don't easily flare up in front of people. I just really don't understand it. I know I probably would make people go mad about me, I don't care.

Also, to my friends who don't really talk to me anymore. You know who you are. I am always trying to help you guys in your studies. You rather find others which I don't really mind but sometimes I find that I could be transparent to you guys. Only in your desperate needs would you then talk to me. I really wished that we can be like in the past again. Talking and crapping and having fun. I just hope that we were all back in Sec 1. Still being friends. Maybe, I could only be an aquantaince to you now. I don't know. Well, I knew I had no friends from this class anyway. After that incidence. But whatever. You can continue to see me as a transparent soul. At least say a Hi and Bye. That's all i'm asking for.

hi

It's another day of lonliness. Today was practically another boring day. I went to eat breakfast with my dad at 9AM. That's like 1 hour earlier than the time I usually eat breakfast at. In the end, when I came home, it was only 0945! At this time usually, I would still be at home and not having my breakfast yet. From that time onwards until 1900 I did not even say a single word out. I guess my mouth probably stinks right now. I guess I have to brush and rinse my mouth with Listerine about 10 times to get rid of the stench.

So let's see what I planned to do today:

1. Plan out June Holidays Study timetable.
2. Do geography evaluation which I was suppose to hand up 2 days ago.
3. Do compo for Ms Ong.

Let's see what I did today instead:

1. Use the computer for 4 hours.
2. Practice piano for 2 hours.
3. Did no homework at all.

GOD!!! life is just so boring when there's no one in the house. If my mom was at home now, she would most probably be shouting at me for playing the piano for so long and not do any homework at all to improve my abysmal results. I guess I was too bored to do anything. I need someone to talk to.

I wanted to play Wii but I gave up on the idea. Playing Wii by myself is just crazy. Firstly, I would have no one to share the fun with. Secondly, if I win a game, I would say 'yay' to myself which is kind of psychotic. Lastly, it's just stupid to play alone. Missing my sister so much now. I havn't touched the Wii for about more than a month already. I WANT MY SIS TO BE BACK!!! I WANT MY MOM TO BE BACK!!!

Family is very important. No matter how much they yell at you and do things that sometimes are unreasonable, they are still your family. Without family, there is actually no true joy in your life. I guess the phrase 'family comes first' is really true. Family is more important than anything else in the world.

I guess I have to try and study. I'm still alone at home and ate dinner by myself at home. My father said he would be back at 8+, but i guess he's going to be back late again.

hai...life is just boring. I could die of boredom soon. I need SCHOOL!!!

bye

Hi!

Yesterday was quite an enjoyable day. In the morning, I did not go to the seminar because I did not sign up for it. Thank God I didn't. [They said it was boring!] So me, jerry, lynn, jj, judaxil, deanne, aniket, chang shi, rebecca and alex were in Ms yew's class for the whole day. We did the 2001 O level english Paper 2. We had gone through all the questions and were just starting to do the questions when ms yew said this>

"I'm feeling hungry. Maybe I should order McDonalds. Do you guys want as well?" or something like that. She treated like 16 people to McDonalds including me. So me and jerry went to the general office to pick up the food. I helped Jerry carry like 1 cup of drink because his hands were already packed with 16 cups of hot and cold drinks. I took the 2 big bags of food and that 1 drink which was about to topple any moment. Jerry felt super important as if he was to fall down, there will be no more drinks for all of us. So the rest of the day was enjoyable with Ms Yew talking lame things and joking around.

After the lesson, went to eat lunch at the nearby coffeeshop. I used my last $2.50 there. Since I was broke, I had to go home instead. The weather was so hot yesterday that I just had to turn on the air-con. So I slacked around for a few hours and then head back to school to have night study.

Night study was fun. Pei Shi was trying extremely hard to pronounce the "th" sound. I think there's something wrong with her mouth. Haha. She just can't seem to pronounce it properly. Sorry Pei Shi. After night study, went to 201 McDonalds with Jerry, Shang Zhi, Joe, Raymond and Yu Quan to eat ice-cream. Raymond called Jeanette Tan as his "oral consultant". It's actually suppose to be just his oral teacher for consultation, but then it turned out to be a horny talk in the end.

Went home and was alone. I was so bored that I watched "Balls Of Fury" on HBO until midnight. I was way too tired so I went to sleep. Dad came home at I don't know what time but at least he came back when I woke up suddenly at 430am.

Today was super boring. Did nothing at home. I wanted to do homework but I was just too bored and lazy.

I read 1 article in the "Broader Perspectives" book Ms Ong lend me. I find it very interesting. Here's the title:

"MASS PRODUCTION INEVITABLY MEANS A LOSS OF CRAFTSMANSHIP AND QUALITY. IS THIS TRUE IN YOUR SOCIETY?"

It's interesting to read what people feel about current affairs. Their use of language is very good. I think I could be starting to love the subject more and more. Maybe by prelims I could score a B at last.

well, there's nothing else to say anymore. So goodbye.

Recommend THIS:
go www.youtube.com and search communitychannel. Watch at least 1 of the videos made by and hosted by Australian Natalie Tran. She's super hilarious.

Ok. Bye.

hey..

went to school again and went to the new com lab today...the screen of that new computer is wide lah but then it's damn short so it makes the whole thing feels weird..not like my iMac which is BIG...

so after school, ms ong came into class to tell the people who are going to the seminar tomorrow to blah blah...and when i was about to leave the classroom, she asked me:" Chun hong, you are going to do your second oral consultation right?" and I said:"I havn't even go for one." =.=...

so she decided to give me an oral consultation to me NOW...so I went and someone finally realised that I was speaking too fast AGAIn...I know that I had always spoken very fast in primary school as my EL teacher used to say if I'm actually rushing for the train...Well, I thought I talked slower. Guess I was wrong...

Then I chat with her..it's actually sooo amazing..I never really talk to a teacher about so many lame and funny things in school..and she had to cancel all her travel plans cos Melbourne, Australia is currently a H1N1 place so if she goes there she would be quarantined when she comes back and maybe she would do lessons via YouTube...haha...laugh about that for soo long...

then she asked if I had any extra reading materials at home and I said No...so she lend me this book of hers which is called Broader Perspective and it's a compilation of articles..she wants me to read 2 a day and give her my comments...i find it really interesting...haha...

ok...nothing already, then I went to see the band for awhile and then came home..almost slept in the bus again, I guess it's the heat again...hai..

mummy is going to HK to meet my sis tml so I would be stuck at home with my dad for a week but let's see, I won't really see much of him anyways...haha...

BYE

hey...

today had school as usual and also chem SPA...

it's finally the last chem SPA ever....so do finish liao and pray hard I didn't do anything wrong...

Oh yah...had my report book back on monday and when I went to the hall, Ms Ong ask me to see her later and I said ok..[cos i failed english]

then when take back report book, that MS LIM she shout SOOO loud:" CHUN HONG, MS FAITH ONG WANTS TO SEE YOU!!!" and i was like yah i know..damn pai seh lah...shout until so loud as if I cannot hear like that...

ok wadever...here are my lousy grades...

English: E8
Chinese: B4
Additional Mathematics: A2
Mathematics: A1
Biology: C5 :(
Chemistry: A2
Physics: A1
Combined Humanities: C6

L1R4: 14
L1R5: 20

hai...must work hard to improve humanities and english...especially english...

ok that's all...BYE

hey...

had chinese Os today!!! Finally, I finished it.

The paper was quite okay in my opinion. I did 私函和报章读后感....actually wanted to do the narrative but got stuck halfway. so i decided to change when I left 1 hour...so I kept thinking I have no time to do my bao zhang but in the end, I only took 50 minutes cos I was writing at lightning speed.

After paper, went with Joe, Jerry, Joshua and Jia Hui....OMG...they all start with the letter J..ok, i;m the odd one out...haha...after a long long discussion, we ended up in the foodcourt for our lunch...

then we decided to go home instead and now I'm slacking at home and waiting for the MTP to come...

haha...

Moy said the meet the parents joke damn funny lah...He said today got 'Meet" the parents and his "meet" is meant pinch cos the pronounciation of pinch in cantonese is actually "meet"..so me and jerry kept laughing....

Ok...I am going to Facebook now...bye